I don’t want to kill myself.
It’s just that sometimes I can’t understand anything and sometimes it feels like the weight of the universe settles itself on my shoulders and I can’t see the reason for anything. I don’t want to die, really, but I don’t particularly want to live.
Sometimes I wish I could slip away while I sleep. Wake up some place better. Some place quieter.
But I don’t believe in heaven so I’m not sure where that place would be."